So I almost threw in the towel this morning! The alarm went off at 3:30 and my body screamed, "SCREW THIS"! I closed my eyes again thinking, this sucks, I have to go or I'll be letting myself down as the other side of my brain said, "SHUT UP, I'M TRYING TO SLEEP OVER HERE"! 3:45, second alarm. I can't do it, I just can't. I've been working so hard, I physically do not have it in me this morning...but I have to. I sat up, laid back down, punched the bed and sat back up again. I have to. I was right on both counts, I did not physically have it in me to run 8 miles today, but I had to do something...so I rode my bike instead. Its called cross training and it reduces the likelihood of injury! Its been about 5 years since I rode regularly so it was tough, especially on the uphills, but I got my butt out of bed and I worked out, I didn't let the little voice inside my head that tears me down everyday win. I won. I showed myself that I am in control of what I do, of how I am, of my health and my life. I don't do it for anyone else, no one else would even notice if I stayed in bed. I don't do it for attention, half the world is still asleep when I start pounding pavement. I do it for me, I do it to feel better physically and mentally, I do it...because I can, I do it...for my life.
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